I was born from human parents so I am told, so I must have started out human. I don't know when it happened but somehow early in life I lost my humanness. Humans, I hear, have an instinctive need to belong. They are social animals.
I was a different animal since I spent most of my time alone and I liked it that way. I noticed when I posted poems about my childhood, many of them spoke of my aloneness growing up. I have lived a lifetime not actually living at all. Maybe I ruminate on the past too much, I'm sure I do, but one has to know before they can grow. All I know is that I always felt different from other humans, and I didn't know why.
Lately I have discovered my humanness. I like being human. I have discovered the joy of life and friendship for the first time in years. I keep surprising myself by climbing mountains that should have been climbed decades ago. I keep growing, I've got a lot of years to make up for.
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